I just read a reference to a behavior pattern and I think it is really my problem.
I AM BINARY!!!
So in computer speak - which is often used at my house - you know binary is all ones and zeroes. So you are either a one or a zero - there is no middle ground - there is no average - or moderation - just a one or a zero.
So when I am on to something (like a diet) (let's call this a one) - I am totally on it - gung ho!!! - no stopping me!!! - eat no fat - eat no carbs - eat no sugar - !!!
And then I hit a plateau or I burn out and I turn into a ZERO!!!!
and I am the other side of that coin - lay on the couch - want to do nothing - want to eat everything - I said 'Want' not going to do it - but I might just have some full fat salad dressing......
So at least there is a name for this behavior - now I just need to figure out if I want to change it or not....